lose weight, get healthy, go to church, exercise, go to school etc. that is for me and my spirit and my betterment. I wish a Mutha would suggest that I should do that for His or Her benefit. YOU will go over the mountain and into the sea post haste.
Yes, I am aware that most [...]
Archive for June, 2007
When I…
Posted in Uncategorized on June 28, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
Blue or white collar man? Who cares!?!!
Posted in God, marriage, relationships/ friend on June 28, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
I may have always been a little different in this area…. but I do not think I am. I have always and will always be more concerned about the marriage than the wedding, more prayerful and hopeful about the couples union than what they have or what they could possibly own. I have always held [...]
Jakob to Isreal
Posted in Uncategorized on June 27, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
A while ago I wrote an e-mail filled with forgiveness, and for all the people I forgave I did not put myself on the list. I did not put me aka Jakob on the list. It is important to put yourself aka Jakob on that list when you really need to move on – move [...]
Adjusting from Jakob to Isreal
Posted in Uncategorized on June 27, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
OK. Yesteday I had a flashback day. I had a mental, emotional and physical flashback. Instead of doing anything I sat around, ate a lot of food and fantasized, bitched to the 4 walls and watched tv re-runs. I did things that I have done to get throught the past few years that by the way [...]
Heard…
Posted in Uncategorized on June 22, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
from an associate today. I feel bad about it, cause we were once really good friends. I sent her and my other friends a link that a blogger, jus butterfli (great and inspiring blog!) put up of a couple that recently got engaged with God all in the mix. It was so beautiful it made me cry at [...]
Defenses…
Posted in Uncategorized on June 21, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
Welcome to Nikita’s defense mechanisms. Be careful, or you will get your head sliced off. Oh, and please do not try to compete with her or put her down in any way – even sometimes jokingly cause the cut your azz a matic will be on your…. azz. Better than a switch blade or a [...]
Building new friendships.. etc.
Posted in Uncategorized on June 20, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
I am having to relearn how to make friends, how to be available for folks, how…. I am kinda shocked, but I now understand that my defense mechanisms that I use to avoid being hurt are working against me. Against me. .. As I marinate on that, I have decided to foucs my attention on getting [...]
New day and on Purpose..
Posted in change, encouragement, forgiveness, greatful, self on June 19, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
Hey, I will admit it, lately I have been grumbling – a heck of a lot. I have. I had to understand today that I determine how my day and how my life will go. You can really get caught up in the past, and I have made a concious decision to leave the past [...]
Self Revelations and Clarification
Posted in Uncategorized on June 18, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
Had a lot of clarity come through this weekend, and some fun too!! I recently looked back to move foward. I looked back over my life and I realized some things.
I am at a new point in my life and I need like minded friends, associates etc.
My self esteem was low – and I mean [...]
Thanks
Posted in Uncategorized on June 18, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
Thank you God for Daddy. I love my dad. Heck, I am a lot like him. I have found myself having to forgive him at times, however, he has my back, taught me to stand up for myself and to love myself where I am in the best way I can.
I thank you God for [...]
