I usually don’t complain on this blog. I really try to keep it positive, uplifting, hopeful etc. I am changing, and I want to keep it real, I want to keep it uplifting, but today I need this blog to be a place where I scream for a minute.
WTF!!!???? My sister. Oh my God. My sister. The bullshit is of the chain. My Sister. Stupid, stupid, stupid. Oh. My. God.
She buys a car. The car is wrecked. The financing falls through. They WANT THE CAR BACK!!! This stupid girl holds onto the car. They call me, they call my folks, they call my Brother. Turn in the fucking car!!! We tell her about the impending warrant out for her ass. STUPID STILL DOES not turn in the FUCKING CAR. They go to my parents house late at night asking questions, trying to find her ass, and want to get the car back. STUPID, TURN IN THE CAR. I am sitting at my job minding my own damn business and I get a call from the damn PI. Turn in the car, didn’t she tell me she turned in the car? She LIED!! Again, she LIED!! Now she is having an attitude like somebody has done something to her. STOP upsetting my parents, stop interrupting our lives with this silly, selfish, ig’nant bullshit. I am so mad and hurt that she is still doing stuff like this. I am so damn mad. I am so hurt. She keeps lying. She goes and picks up and carries to her heart drama and struggle like it some kind of badge of honor.
She is another person that I am going to have to step back from, and let go for a while and just watch her live her life the way that she will. All of this heartbreak while you are trying to trust and belive in a person is becoming too much. All of the lies, the lies, the lies.
I am turning her over to God. I am going to have a good cry in the office bathroom, and I am going to move on. I love her, but I am done. I am so tired. She makes it so hard to love her. She makes it so hard to trust her. She makes it so hard to believe she has a fucking brain in her head. I ….. love her anyway, and it hurts to watch her play herself. But it is her life, and nobody can make her stop or see herself, or do something real to solve it. The shit is beyond ridiculous. My soul and spirit needs a break now.
For right now, I. AM. DONE!! Please pray for me, my family and esp. my sister. Thank you.
