In a rush to be a part of the crowd I covered my right eye with a patch. Though I bumped into things, fell and hurt myself, I kept up with the crowd. The crowd in turn began to tell me where to stand, how to stand, how to breathe, what to want and where [...]
Archive for February, 2007
My path…
Posted in change, greatful on February 28, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
Building …
Posted in change, greatful, religion, self, self responsibility on February 27, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
I used to be so sure. I was sure about where I wanted to go, what I wanted to do, how I wanted to live. Lately it has occured to me that I have tried stepping into others dreams, goals etc. and trying to make them my own. They are not mine. I am now [...]
Thanks….
Posted in Uncategorized on February 26, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
Because I know that God is for me, I am learning to stand on faith and not live in fear of what man may do, react or how he will/ will not accept me. God be praised and thank you for beginning the process of setting me free from myself. I looked in the mirror [...]
Stopping madness…
Posted in Uncategorized on February 26, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
My heart is beginning the healing process. I mean, thank God for the healing process that has really begun. It was more than a little difficult, admitting that I hold on to things, creating drama for myself when I need to just let it go, but I do, and I am. There is nothing more [...]
I miss him…
Posted in relationships/ friend on February 23, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
There was a time when most of my friends were guys. My life was simple. They would say something, I would respond AND if they continued to piss me off I would cuss at them. They would talk it out with me, sometimes cuss at me and…. we were friends.
Recently I have dealt with an [...]
Today..
Posted in Uncategorized on February 21, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
It is time to come up with a plan. Not a declaration or a proclomation, but a good solid plan. So much of my life I have allowed it to be about the governing and helping of others. I enjoy that, really I do. However, I think that it is also important that I take [...]
Getting it…
Posted in relationships/ friend, self responsibility on February 15, 2007 | 1 Comment »
About my old friend. Just simply getting to the heart of the matter. The matter in a word is respect. I will let a lot of stuff past but disrespect I won’t. How can my friend think that her response would honestly sit well with me I don’t know. But I do know that when [...]
Acceptance/ Happy Valentine’s Day!
Posted in Uncategorized on February 14, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
Yesterday I finally accepted that it was time to let an old friend become and acquaintance only and that there was nothing I could do to change the situation. I would not try to clear the air, or try to see where she was coming from – even though I tried on 3 seperate occassions [...]
Proving Blackness
Posted in Uncategorized on February 13, 2007 | 1 Comment »
Since when did it become necessary for a person to “prove” they are black, that they have a soul for the people they are from etc. Since when did we as black americans start beleiving and falling for that 50 Cent, Ying Yang twins, black militant bull and not look for how the person believes [...]
Epiphany
Posted in Uncategorized on February 12, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
Am I blocking myself from love? That question roams through my head on the regular lately. I am thinking the answer is yes. I have blocked myself from being loved and loving toward other people. When I made the decision to take the Superwoman sign down, a lot of other things came into focus. I [...]
